Sometimes the dark is not worth risking.

Haha I know it's gross the extent I'm sunburnt! Ultimate leh. Gah whatever. Like what Daniel has, a 'white shirt' under his shirt lol.

Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I.

Great song(:

Anyways during GP today, we were talking about what makes a human human. Then my teacher randomly said 'What makes Huipeng Huipeng? What's the Huipengness about her?' And she told us to write down what we think makes us ourselves, and whether as we grow up we become more ourselves or have deviated from the our true self.

I was thinking about what makes me, me, and whether I have deviated from my true self or became more myself through the years. It has got to be the personality, the character that each and everyone have that makes each individual themselves. But I think throughout everything, the me have changed in one way or another throughout all the experiences I've been through. I remember making myself seem very strong in the past, thinking and telling people that nothing will ever hurt me. But as I grew older and through more experiences, I guess that was not true about me, because until I met with each situation then did I know how I thought too highly of myself then. But I guess something inside just doesn't change through it all, something just intangible. Something that even throughout everything, I'll still believe in that part of myself to make it all right.

My teacher also mentioned about how people might get out of themselves sometimes and behave unlike themselves and whether that will make the person not himself or herself anymore. But she agreed that people do behave unlike themselves sometimes in duress but if they were to go back to the self they were and think about it again, they'll still be themselves still because everyone would have taken that step out before.

I like how she said that, because it made me feel that I should never doubt who I am even if under duress I acted differently from the typical me. I'm still me after all.

Did I ever mention how I like GP lessons? I swear it's like super interesting and beneficial. And I think I've only slept once in a GP lesson compared to how I sleep frequently in every other lessons ): Too bad I suck in GP if not I'd love GP as a subject, not only the lesson.

Anyway, don't ask me anything. It's just it, so there's no explanation for that. Rah.