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The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Sometimes the dark is not worth risking.
her  huipeng. aprilfourth. working on ridding herself of hedonistic thoughts because she only wants to live in God's word. sustaining on His love. speak
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i knw th damn clock's ticking. yes, th alarm is soon to be sounded.4:18 PM i swr im overwhelmed by all th h/w thrown to us. and for th very fact dat i dun hand in stuffs on time, th pile's accumulating beyond control. i have th urge to throw thm all into th freaking shredder. and whn time and agn, th ppl ard me starts whining they hvnt study finish blahblah, i'll just stay silent. its useless pointing out i've not even started. it wun make either of us happier. unless they feel happier knwing someone's worst off than thm. ugh i feel tired everyday. im becoming mre and mre easily angered tis few days. having th urge to spurt vulgarities at those who pissed me off. bt being th civilised kid i am, i wont overreact. must be th lack of slp taking its toll on me. i look forward to th future. th ever-enticing future aft eoys. but dere's tis freaking bottomless hole in front of me, deterring my every step forward. i might just fall right into it and die. or might just get through battered and bruised. okay i so hope i'll make it through fine. dat's being ever so optimistic. i swr im dreading life as it is now. i cant take th fact dat tis cruel world base their working principle on th survival of th fittest, th struggle to survive. why cant it just be pure fun and laughter, without any competition to try drown th other. okays im totally th one being drowned now. and im losing dat very faith. ya, huipeng, th only thing you have to do is believe. believe dat you'll be able to make it through. but hey, it's always easier said than done. sheesh. life's so.... grr.. and if llm ever asks me wad is my future ambition, im so gna tell her dat i wna work in th SIA. let her believe dat im taking up aerospace engineering or sth. im so not intending to use my brain cells at all whn im out in th working world. i've used up plenty now and i dun like th feeling of it. it irks me dwn to my stomach. i'll kill nuclear physics test and dat freaking 83 definitions plus th el essay test tml. or rather i'll be killed by both of thm and th stupid h/ws dued tml. and im largely confirmed going to shanghai wif cx. gna pay th deposit tml. tis is so exciting. provided i dun flunk eoys and commit suicide or sth. tireds. time for a nap. only you bring life to th listless me.
&still trying to find a happy ending
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