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The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Sometimes the dark is not worth risking.
her  huipeng. aprilfourth. working on ridding herself of hedonistic thoughts because she only wants to live in God's word. sustaining on His love. speak
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Wednesday, November 07, 2007
sometyms i may treat you badly and condemn you but i do noe it, i do.7:18 PM maeb its bcos of the limit of tolerance in me when i put up wif you doing stuffs dat appears so know-it-all. but i still knew you were my best fren. despite all those. yt its such best frens dat let my dwn. in tyms when i wanted you to rely on me but you sook reliance on another and left me thinking otherwise. in tyms when we used to laugh at someone else, yt in the turn of an eye you seem to haf pierced me frm behind my back, hand in hand wif dat someone else. in tyms when you needed my support, no matter how much i didnt support you, i still helped, cos you were my fren. but nv i knew when i needed yours, you werent dere anymre. in tyms when they used to condemn you, i believed you were alrite tho' not perfect and tried to convince them dat you were nice. but you dun seem to be standing by me. in tyms when you needed approval, despite going with my conscience, i owaes stood by you. but your conscience owaes overpower me. i hate the tyms when i tried to let you noe how impt i am dat i simply refused to help just by getting you to notice. i hate the tyms when i noe you were impt yt deny when i was told you were. i hate the tyms you helped me beyond wad you were supposed to do and i still didnt want to admit. i hate the tyms i felt you were a burden and yt miss you when you're not dere. i hate the tyms when you knew you were so impt in my life, and tho' i hated the tot of it, you were. i hate the tyms when i tot you wouldnt lend me a hand, you owaes seem to prove me otherwise. grief. tears. solitude. i understand wad it means by blood is thicker than water. you nv rly do understand me. and im starting to suspect whether i understood you in the first place. were we just mere acquantances inside? bff, i hope and as i wrote tis i tot hard about everything you did for me and i did for you. you appeared in my mind and the tot just made me cry uncontrollably. --------------------------------------- im weak. tears rly do flow when such stuffs happens. when ppl whom i tot knew me inside out didnt and to tink i was deluded thinking you would side me no matter wad others might sae. you're just one of them. those beings dat didnt want to try to noe me when i tried to explain and in the end question dat the results were most impt. those ppl dat tot i sook power but werent able to explain when questioned. i dun mind hearing your views but i hate it when you claim dat i did not do things i was evidently doing. you tink i dun care bout anything but the tot of it comes into my mind each day. whr i would tink wads wrong. i knew wad was wrong but just couldnt find the solution. its my fault i didnt want to clear my doubts but no hard feelings. but you just practically took the knife and stabbed me repeatedly. the pool of blood dat floweth frm me allows me to reflect upon myself in the most painful way.
&still trying to find a happy ending
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